Going along for the ride

My first six weeks in this ministry of mine have made my mind do some whacky stuff. One minute ill have complete confidence in myself and how I'm doing things and then for some odd reason BAM! it changes. I question every thought that goes through my head and I spend most of my time thinking about why I'm doing something instead of the actual production. And if I ever make it to the actual production stage, I might question myself so much that I start all over again. Maybe this is just what happens when I get more responsibility. What looks like me procrastinating is really just me doubting myself (and maybe a little bit of procrastination). This has been one of the biggest hurdles working at a church so far, but I’m starting to love it.

When I realized what was holding me back I did what every good little Christian boy does: PRAY! What I realized was that I was not only doubting myself but I was doubting God as well. He put me in this ministry for a reason and there is a reason he gave me the gifts and abilities that I have. And I know that one of the abilities he blessed me with is the knowledge to make my OWN decisions! I need to be confident in myself because I am confident in God. This doesn't mean I won't mess up. I fully expect to have some pretty bad mess ups. But God will take care of me and this ministry (plus, since I’m an intern, Ben and frank would get more crap about it then I would ;)

So this blog is going to by my hitchhikers guide through my ministry experiences. The hopefully many ups and few downs that I go through on this journey. I’m very excited to see how this ministry changes because of my involvement and how I change. I don't know if any of you have seen the movie A Hitchhikers’ Guide Through the Galaxy but the lessons that the main character learns aren't learned through his own self reasoning and knowledge, but through learning from all the mistakes that he made while chasing something he couldn't quite wrap his brain around. I expect to do the same thing. So saddle up, it’s going to be a bumpy ride!